New semester

I've been dead for 33 hours since I arrived last Friday night. I felt so comfortable resting in peace, being disconnected from the outside world. It felt so good that I refused to come to live again, that is, until I heard a voice telling me to wake up, I kept hearing it over and over again, and I finally opened my eyes. There I was again, back to reality. *sigh*

Nothing has changed since I left Cork last June. A day before I came back, a friend told me that my room was such in a disaster, since I had my bed being repaired for an incident happened 2 days before I went back to Malaysia. Thus I said to myself, "nevermind, Atiq isn't home yet, I can sleep on her double-sized bed, ehehe." Apparently, when I set my foot into my room, I was surprised to see how neat and tidy it was! It happened to be, my syg Dayah has helped to clean up my room. Oh my goodness, I feel so touched. Dayah, you always know how to make me love you more and more each day, heee *grin* I'm glad to have you here, really.

Anyways, I've seen our new timetable for this semester, and goshhh, it's a pain in the ass! We have CP orientation week starting from today till Friday, and we'll start the official class next week. Everyday's gonna be fully packed, from 9am up to 5pm with only 1 hour break for lunch. Well, I heard about that last year, but I thought that's not how its gonna be, ingatkan only like 3 days je yg packed camtu, ni tiap2 hari, adeyh.. Like what Dayah said, I'm not gonna have time to meet my therapist anymore this year. And with such a hectic schedule, how am I gonna go for practice with my Master Creedon (yeah I know, mesti ade yg akan buat muka punye, haha), and to work out at the gym, or to even go for swimming at Mardyke? Those are the only things that I usually do to release the pressure, urghhh~!

But the good thing about being busy to death is that, you can get your mind distracted from thinking about silly things that you wished can be washed out from your brain. Hurm, that's true, but how do you get your heart to not feel anything about it? Dear God, please make me become heartless somehow, it's really tiring being me, very exhausting..

You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel..