I Hate Me

NOTE TO SELF

Dear me,
I hate you so much, I really do.
There's nothing bout you that I love,
You never make me happy or proud to be me,
Screwing up is what you do best,
I wonder what is it that you're really good at,
You're useless, you're hopeless,
People tried to love you
but you chase them away,
They offered to lighten up your life
but you choose to stay in the darkness,
just because you're upset about how your life treated you.

You know how to take care of others,
but you never take care of yourself,
You tried so hard to please and satisfy them,
but you neglect your own needs and desire.
You're smiling in front of everyone
but you're crying inside,
You seem tough when you confront reality,
but the inner part of you is so vulnerable,
You tried to help those who matter
but you can't even help yourself.
What the fuck is wrong with you?
To me you're just a freak
who keeps everything bottled up inside your chest
and let the pain eat you up alive.

I really hate myself.