Rambling

I've been doing alot of thinking lately, well, apart from spending most of my precious time sleeping, of course. and I've figured out alot too. You see, I'm quite a thinker, as you might not already know. I'm an angry person. No wait, I WAS an angry person, and to make it worse, I don't know how to let it out. Study doesn't make me stressed, anger does. I want to change that part of me, I really do, I don't wanna be holding grudges and anger inside my chest like I used to, maybe because I want to die peacefully, not due to stress-related disease. Hence I've started to learn to forgive, I just won't forget. I'm learning to control my temper too, slowly but surely. Having said that, I'm not trying to become nicer, I just simply don't wanna care anymore.

Had a serious conversation with Mas about marriage right after we finished dinner just now. I'm feeling lonely that I want to get married, just to have someone by my side. I'm talking about a marriage, not a 'bf/gf relationship'. So matchmakers, jalankan tanggungjawab anda, sempurnakan niat murni saya ini. I'm insane, I know.

I don't know what am I rambling about coz I'm seriously tired, been out the whole day from 845am until 9pm today, and its 1030pm now, I'm off to bed. Nite.