To be happy

TO BE HAPPY

I've had the happiest moment of my life,
I was very happy that I felt like I didn't need anything anymore,
seemed like I've got everything I ever wanted,
I felt as if it was okay if my life has come to an end for I've got what I wanted,
spending my life happily with the one I love, it would leave me no regret if my life was to be taken away..
I knew once how does it feel like to be happy,
it was the best feeling I could have ever asked for,
what I didn't know was it was just destined for just a very short period of time,
before I even noticed, before I could have been better prepared to say goodbye,
it has been taken from me, thats when the nightmares started to appear..

and now, I'm scared to be happy again,
I'm even afraid to be offered to feel happy,
I don't want to be happy just to know disaster is about to come afterwards, whenever that is..